Hello there

It is been a long time since my last post. I lost my lust to either write nor read. It is sad, I know. I have been encouraging myself to  read this whole summer and tried to read some books but I have not finished one yet. Then, just before I write this, I was checking on my twitter and realized it is been a long time since I wrote my last post. I mean, I am not really a writer, I did not write story, poems and other, but at least I used to be able to put my feelings into word. So, this some kind of a come back haha (sorry it might be too much).

This is my third year in college. I cannot say much about my college life, I am kind of disappointed with myself.  Everything seems to fall apart  and I need motivation to keep moving on. I feel tired of studying. No, it does not mean that I do not like to learn anymore. I just feel like my life does not go anywhere. When everybody is about to start their first job, I am not even sure when I can graduate. I want to be better. I want to finish something. I want to be freed from the feeling of guilty. I want to make my parent's life better. I want to have my own income. I want to make plans about other things not only about how many credits I should take this semester. I want to plan my wedding, plan when I can build a house for my parents, plan where should I take my parents to for the next vacation.

I do have a lot of dreams, but I cannot even think of them if I have not graduated yet and have a decent job.

I do not know how to end this post, but this is it. I guess I share enough for now. I am still thankful tho. There are a lot of things I did not mention that makes me grateful.

Hope you have a happy blessed day.